Looking back, I can’t help but wonder where I lost it…I have
always been popular, I might say, not for being a conformist but as they say
when referring to weird people…different! I’ve never thought consciously about
it because it never was a constant issue.
In life, phases come n go, inclinations to be someone else
other than yourself is always inevitable whether sober or under the influence
of external forces whether dark or otherwise. If a thought is consistent, then
the urge to either do something about it or give in and subject you to untold
emotional suffering is that much more imminent.
I never had the courage to do certain things but things
seemed to turn around with time…hidden behind a mask of masculinity and
supremacy that kept me in a state of content with myself and a reasonable
amount of respect from peers. Fitting in was never really the issue despite all
pressures or el e ad probably be dead by now, following in the footsteps of
fellow peers whose crime was to fail to appreciate the intricacies of life and
what different situations it presents all of mankind at different times in our
lives.
There’s always a way all you need is to have the right
perspective of things. You don’t need to understand everything…no one does…and
time will take care of the rest. The fear of the unknown drives us to do many things
both constructive and otherwise, but the unknown sums up what humanity is all
about.
Keep the faith.
